Blogging is not for journaling
I started this blog to document and reflect on random moments from my life. Eventually to find that it was a poor medium for doing so.
Though anonymous (to a certain degree), my page is public facing. No matter how much I tell myself to not care, I do care. I reword, reorganize, and cut out the "boring parts". It takes more energy than I would like and is too slow. So many times I've been working on one post, but want to write several others. It's impossible.
On a whim I bought a paper journal a few weeks ago. I thought it'd be mostly the same, but no.
I like to write using pen. A consequence of which is that I can't change what I write. What comes down are my thoughts, and will stay as exactly those thoughts I had in that moment of time. I frequently write down a bunch of redundant stuff, sometimes entire pages of reasoning I realize later are completely useless. But they will stay just as they are.
No editing, no subconscious worrying about what people think. Unexpectedly, it really felt like an order of magnitude in energy saved. I eagerly write nearly every day now. That's a long way from how often I wrote before.
Who could have known that using an actual journal is the purest form of journaling?